3van3sc3nc3 (3van3sc3nc3) wrote in thebroken,
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so alone

im so sick of feeling all alone,
i dont want to be by myself anymore i want someone to be there for me, to comfort me and no matter how much i push them away if they no something is wrong they will stay to make sure that im ok not for them to just say msg me tomorrow and tell me how you are. tomorrow i will seem fine but its tonight, now that im not ok and needed him but he isnt here. nothing will ever fill the empty hole i have inside me it stays there every minute of every day, it never leaves not even for a second. i want to show my dad how much he has hurt us and what he did so he can feel what we do everyday let him be overwhelmed by guilt. i no i never can show him and i can never make him feel the guilt and pain of leaving us here to hurt and cry for his absence that is needed and as much as i hate him i also love him so much more... 8 years he has been gone in 13minutes, the 24th of september.. that date will never leave my mind nor be forgotten just like he wont he is always at least in the back of my mind. i always wonder how things would be if he were here but that i will never know.
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I don't think I got it as bad as you do, but my dad abandoned me when I was about you're age, I felt alone ever since. I wanted to die, and I'm still furious with him but at the same time I miss him and I wish he was around and I feel so dead inside because of it. I'm so fucking afraid of people now I can't make any new friends and all the friends I did have rarely talk to me now.....Fathers are so fucking selfish; aren't they?
hey.. i feel your pain... yeah they are selfish and assholes but you shouldn't let him ruin your life... i bet he isn't worth it... and if you ever wanna talk you can talk to me... i find it's easier to talk to and make friends over the net anyways...
yeah, it is easier over the net.....I'll add you to my friends, if you don't mind, and if you need to talk I'll listen as well. I've been told thats all I'm good for.....
hey.. yeah thats cool... but i don't use this one much... but if u use vampire freaks u can add me... mines xxcrmson_tearsxx i use that one alot...

Anonymous

January 25 2007, 17:11:57 UTC 10 years ago

Neon-Genesis Evangelion---Watch it

Anonymous

January 25 2007, 17:14:42 UTC 10 years ago

in the words of dennis leary- Life's gonna suck when you grow up, it sucks pretty bad right now! If you know the words sing along! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Anonymous

January 25 2007, 17:19:46 UTC 10 years ago

QUIT YOUR BITCHIN ONE OF MY BEST FREINDS SAW HER FIANCE GET RUNOVER BY A DRUNK DRIVER RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER AND SHE IS PERFECTLY NORMAL SO QUIT WHINING ABOUT HOW BAD LIFE IS AND GROW UP. THIS IS FRERAKIN CHILDISH!!!!!! MIEN GOT EIN FRIGGIN HIMMEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!